Wednesday, February 27, 2019 / Day 4:

The day beings at 6:15 am. To give me time for a 25 minute meditation before my men’s group at 7:30. Mostly meditation is a return to breath from mind chatter, over and over. But this morning, I notice a definite shift in my body to a deeper state of relaxation. At the meeting last night we read from the SAA “Green Book.” I think it’s called the “Green Book.” In any case, it’s the SAA equivalent of the AAA Big Book. It’s the story of a guy who finally in middle-age finds sobriety from his addiction to sex and fantasy. Good news for me. It’s not enough for the importance of getting sober to be described. Me, I need to see actual results in the way of real, sober people. I can relate to much of the sharing until suddenly, I’m overwhelmed by hunger pangs and I start obsessing about food… It’s too late to eat! Will I get home before it’s too late to eat? What about making little tacos with scrambled eggs? etc.